*人生.若只如初见.

Two months ago, we were having lunch together , talking, laughing.

But now it is just a memory to call.

We were not very close.

However, we fought for our future together, in the most unforgettable year in life.

We were witnessing each...

 

Long before I came to the United States, I was concerned about my home stay site. Where is its location? What kind of family it would be? Will there be any trouble in living with a local family? Will they treat me as a family member? All these questions remained mysterious until the forth day during the orientation. Deep in my consciousness, I believe in something called “destiny”, in Chinese “Yuan Fen”. Whenever it comes to the question: There are countless people in the world but why you just make acquaintance with that certain amount of people in your life? I would understand it as destiny. Coming from China to the United States, living with some one for some months together closely, I met my amazing host family as part of my destiny.

           I read Vic’s blog before I replied for this program. At that time, I knew that she had a good time with her wonderful family: a very “Berkeley style” mum MK and even more incredible host sister Brittany and her boyfriend Mickey, a cool host brother Kyle and an adorable dog Meg.  It was the intimate relationship she had with her host family made me envious. I wished to have a host family that would treat me as a family member as well; later after I was selected as a Chan Fellow, I read something about Brittany and Mickey from a blog of my favorite artist-Fei Cao.

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but
have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller
families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less
sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems,
more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

One year ago I shared this essay in Chinese and Japanese. Tonight, I mentioned this to MK and she sent the English version to me after reading it .All of a sudden, I realized that I was as moved as before. And I have the same impulse to share this essay as I had last year. Here I go.I have to share it again and again. Just to share as if there is no one would read, as if there is no one would understand--at least, for myself. ---Yan

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I have come to Jerusalem today as a novelist, which is to say as a professional spinner of lies. Of course, novelists are not the only ones who tell lies. Politicians do it, too, as we all know. Diplomats and military men tell their own kinds of lies on occasion, as do used car salesmen, butchers and builders. The lies of novelists differ from others, however, in that no one criticizes the novelist as immoral for telling lies. Indeed, the bigger and better his lies and the more ingeniously he creates them, the more he is likely to be praised by the public and the critics. Why should that be?...

“我对所有‘宏大叙述’抱以最深刻的怀疑，

因为一切伟大的东西背后都是一个个柔软的个人” —龙应台

在《目送》一书里龙应台以很温情的笔触向读者娓娓道来，那个在历史的集体记忆中的一九四九，关于战争，关于解放，关于国家，却很少人从个人的角度，尝试去重新思考这样的一个年代，那些被淹没，被历史遗忘的最基本的组成单位-人究竟在记忆的哪个位置。在历史的洪水涌来的时候，软弱无力的个人被洪水卷走，漂泊，身不由己，有的人罹难，成为洪水的一部分，有的人在挣扎隐忍侥幸中存活，当洪水退尽，他们又用了多少努力去寻找那个早已不复存在的记忆中的家园，肩负了多少重担在追赶时代的步伐，只是当历史的总是以描述性的概括事件的前因后果，他们却成为了不被人关注和了解的背景。尚不知有一种真实是能够由这样的一个个个体，每一个人经历的故事重建的，即使在宏大叙事里他们有多么无关重要，但是如果我们不曾关注过这冷冰冰的历史叙事后面最柔软的一部分，而我们作为终究也会成为这样无力的个体，应该怎样更好的认识我们所听说的过去，我们所处的年代？我们，我，一个个体，一个活着的生命体，在庞大的社会背景下，显得如此渺小，甚至渺小到足以忽略，但不要忘记，每一个集体都是由这些渺小的个人组成，无数的渺小的累积，才能够组成这样不再渺小的集体，所以我们到底是从一个集体的价值和表达去推导每一个个体的共性，还是由每一个个的特性去还原这个集体的真实面貌，其实这是两种不同的看待历史的逻辑，而我认为后者更能为冰冷的历史提供一些温度。

最近情绪低迷，思绪混乱，对很多东西产生了严重的怀疑，又回到了过去的某个状态。

真的是很需要内心和谐的人诶.所以在分享中寻找能带来内心平静的东西。

又，今天得到了一个好消息值得纪念的一天。

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